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23rd December 2012


This should actually be an auspicious date as for years in a row, one believed that the world should have come to an end two days ago…..and it didn’t. [full stop]

I can’t remember though, I ever have been doubting that it would be “the end” of something and remember strongly as a little child fantasizing what I would be and do when reaching the age of 49. I am not sure if already back then I had my connection with the number seven. Or it was just the time I was actually learning to calculate by head. Funny enough I thought then, after having calculated the year on my fingers for many times, that I would be 49 this year, I was 7 back then, but this will only be “official” in 2013.

7x7=49

In India though one is counting the year you actually live as to the year you have completed so in India I would answer 49 to the question how old I am right now.

Not in my wildest imaginations I could have even had the faintest glimpse of what I am living in this year, nor what my life looks like at the moment, but I do still remember the trill I felt even back then.

And I must say trilled I am with the immensity of realizing; I am in a place in my life where I just need to be.

I can’t even say it is so much easier or better than before but it is just more truthful, it is just what it is and needs to be. I am appreciating to the max, every day, the opportunities that  I have to share, to feel connected, just to be in awe for all the little miracles that happen.

Like little beats on a string that wave days into nights and nights into days, allowing time to be timeless, realizing as I was just looking at myself in the mirror I am actually here where I was fantasizing about back then…..tomorrow 24, then 25,26,27,28,29,30,31……2013…….just “the end” of another year…..

GRATITUDE….

 

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